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November 6, 2013
For my reference, an edited chat transcript between me and Meggie about what Diego and Sy talked about when they drank a bottle of whiskey after Coppertale's second Quidditch game.
sy and diego were sweet tonight even though they discussed nothing
diego was probably defensively like I HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED ALCOHOL TOO SY
sy was like
ok fine we can both drink too much on a sunday night because of our fuckin issues
cool
that sounds like the kind of wise decision guys like us make
sy and diego leaned against each other
after having way too many shots
yes
they can just lean in silence
maybe at some point
there was a moment was diego got that look on his face like
i want to talk feelings
and sy had to be like
no
stop
the sad thing is
sy would've let him talk about feelings but
he is not up to any kind of compassionate commentary on feelings
so maybe he would've been like
dude
if you talk that's fine but
i can't do anything but be an asshole
and i don't wanna hurt your feelings
diego wants
sy to talk more
than diego wants to talk
diego's talked to people now and he's plateaued in terms of feeling better
it's not getting any better
he's still heartbroken and hates himself
ok dude that sounds like a lot you'e dealing with
what diego wants to talk about is
how much he worries about sy and rosy
and he never knows what to do about it
what
no one needs to worry about sy and rosy
they're just fine
diego worries about them
you know, sy, if you ever needed something
can diego make him a better quidditch captain
bc that's all sy gives a shit about rn
no like if you and rosy needed to get away for a little
diego would be there for you
he knows he's not really family but it's close enough, right?
oh my god dude
are you too drunk or not drunk enough
also your moms probably won't want sy around
sy swears too much
he's not nice to people
whatever, sabela is ten times as obnoxious as you and mina is twice as mean
they can take you
sy doesn't know how to act around parents
and anyway he can't
he can't run off
it's already bad enough he's run off to this fuckin school for most of the year
diego can't tell sy what to do, but he just wants him to know that like.... the option is there
DIEGO'S NEVER MET FREDDY BUT HE'S PROBABLY A GOOD KID
because.... like
sy
no
cut it out morales
diego's not as much of an idiot as people think
wow
he's smarter than sy
which is all sy needs to know
wow maybe they're both not idiots
but when you're not briliant
it's easier to just let people think you're an idiot FALLING IN THE MIDDLE SUCKS
being brilliant is worse
or trying to be brilliant
god he's not drunk enough for this
THEN TAKE ANOTHER SHOT DUDE
sy is going to
aggressively ruffle diego's stupid hair
and tell him gracias
for bringing him whiskey
and no other reason
mi familia
por sienpre
oh my god
sy is not saying this
but he's going to be so sad when diego graduates
diego will write him
but it's not the same as having this
ball of emotions
always around
it's so sad because
i think
diego is the one person in the world
who doesn't make sy feel garbage about having family
like sy loves his sister and his brother more than he can possibly express but sometimes he also has that painful feeling of
either feeling like the anchor weighing them down or feeling like he can't escape because
they need him too much or he needs them too much
OR WHATEVER it's just a mess
ANYWAY sy is not learning diego's sadly coming to terms with being bi
he's just learning diego got his heart broken
and that he loves the stokers
too much
well sy's solution is to
suggest they drink to that
because who the fuck understands romance
diego has never not fucked it up
he didn't even need to be dating someone to fuck it up this time sy
yeah wow
you're a real fuckin mess dude
maybe you should
become a monk
or whatever
he really is but
look we're
kids
right?
yeah
sy wishes he wasn't but 😕
my mom married her true love when she was young and then that true love ran off on us because it was boring
and turns out someone better was waiting for her when she was almost 40
that's a good story
your mom lucked out
my mom married her true love, and it's worse bc they are exactly the same fuckin person
sy
sy
one day
we're going to find someone who understands us
and sees us
diego
oh god
no matter how difficult we are
because they're going to be just as fucked up
because everyone is fucked up, sy
everyone
sy doesn't want to marry someone who's as fucked as he is
he'll just turn into his mom and dad
you have no choice
no you won't
if it makes you feel better
sy
stop saying my name like that
promise diego you won't turn out like that
and let that looming catholic guilt
guide you
sy knows he's drunk because that almost makes sense as an idea
even tho
it doesn't fuckin make sense
SURE IT DOES you can remember this drunken promise
to be better
diego will make it too
fuck
diego will never cheat again, sy
he promises
don't make this promise to sy, sy never cared that diego cheated
sy is the worst person to make a promise with
yeah but diego fucking cares
he still cares
JUST HUMOR HIM
LET'S PROMISE TO BE BETTER PEOPLE AS ADULTS
THAN WE ARE NOW
okay
does this mean he doesn't have to do it until he becomes an adult
IT'S A PROCESS, SY
fuck
ok
fuck
then it's ok if he keeps fucking up
we're going to be fucking up util we're old
diego's going to be trying to not fuck up until he's old
yeah but it's different
diego
is a good guy
at heart
who's to say sy's not too
he's never gonna fuck up so bad that he can't fix it
everyone
sy
sy says it
ok well diego likes sy
and if sy likes diego
he has to
respect that
ok
if sy remembers in this morning
he wll subconsciously
he'll promise
to try not being such a fucked up asshole
ok
it'll be
a process
diego's going to stop being irresponsible
stop flirting with........... uh, a blatantly unavailable person who doesn't realize what diego is getting out of this one sided relationship
dude
you should want someone
who wants you
because you
deserve that
you're
a good dude
diego
dude :c
diego just goes for people who are
objectively better than him
sy does that too
and then he
fucks it up because he can't
love anyone
yes you can
and you do
sy
diego loves you
diego
fuckin shit
we'll be ok
just maybe
not right now
ok
ok
they're gonna be ok
in the meantime
yeah
sy loves you too man
diego might have drunkenly sung resurrection fern as they fell asleep
diego for fucksakes
shhhhhhhh
sy isn't
going to tell him to stop
aw sy :c
sorry for the weird impromptu lullaby this is awkward but diego's too drunk to notice
sy knows random singing is just what diego does
like random punching is just what sy does
he accepts
diego
they deal with excess emotions differently
he and sy probably went through that whole brand new bottle
it's honestly good that diego was there
because sy would've competitively tried to empty the whole thing by himself
... he probably did get competitive
he was like MORALES
YOU HAVE TO TAKE A SHOT FOR EVERY SHOT I TAKE
LET'S
DO THIS
LIKE MEN
oh my god
diego's not competitive but he's impulsive and a follower so he was like
lol ok c:
xdkjfhkjsdh
diego would not have been like
ok maybe you should stop
EVENTUALLY
but diego realizes things are out of hand usually like
30 minutes
after it's become a bad idea
so he was like....................
sy we're
too drunk
give me back the bottle
ksdjhfkjhd
sy is like no
you'll
have to arm wrestle for it
:c
ok......
i guess.......
come ON diego
he's gonna
teach you how to use those muscles
to be a badass
like sy
MAYBE ONLY A LITTLE LIKE SY
diego doesn't like hitting people
sy's going to be
suffering a little because his knuckles are all bloody and sore and bandaged
this will be a pathetic arm wrestle
diego collapses into laughter
manly laughter
oh diego
sy will be too drunk for coordination
and then he'll be like
ok
ok morales
you win
the bottle
and
my heart
but not in a fuckin gay way
i just mean
i love you dude
WHATEVER DIEGO CAN THROW A 120 LB GIRL SIX FEET IN THE AIR HE CAN WIN THIS
ok ok that's fine YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO'S GOING TO TURN HIM GAY, SY
friend love
like
family love
you're the least shitty adult figure i have in my life
are you 18 yet
can i say that
no wait until december
and you can start calling him papi
CUE MORE LAUGHTER
god you're
an idiot
but that's fine, sy is an idiot too
sy and diego were sweet tonight even though they discussed nothing
diego was probably defensively like I HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED ALCOHOL TOO SY
sy was like
ok fine we can both drink too much on a sunday night because of our fuckin issues
cool
that sounds like the kind of wise decision guys like us make
sy and diego leaned against each other
after having way too many shots
yes
they can just lean in silence
maybe at some point
there was a moment was diego got that look on his face like
i want to talk feelings
and sy had to be like
no
stop
the sad thing is
sy would've let him talk about feelings but
he is not up to any kind of compassionate commentary on feelings
so maybe he would've been like
dude
if you talk that's fine but
i can't do anything but be an asshole
and i don't wanna hurt your feelings
diego wants
sy to talk more
than diego wants to talk
diego's talked to people now and he's plateaued in terms of feeling better
it's not getting any better
he's still heartbroken and hates himself
ok dude that sounds like a lot you'e dealing with
what diego wants to talk about is
how much he worries about sy and rosy
and he never knows what to do about it
what
no one needs to worry about sy and rosy
they're just fine
diego worries about them
you know, sy, if you ever needed something
can diego make him a better quidditch captain
bc that's all sy gives a shit about rn
no like if you and rosy needed to get away for a little
diego would be there for you
he knows he's not really family but it's close enough, right?
oh my god dude
are you too drunk or not drunk enough
also your moms probably won't want sy around
sy swears too much
he's not nice to people
whatever, sabela is ten times as obnoxious as you and mina is twice as mean
they can take you
sy doesn't know how to act around parents
and anyway he can't
he can't run off
it's already bad enough he's run off to this fuckin school for most of the year
diego can't tell sy what to do, but he just wants him to know that like.... the option is there
DIEGO'S NEVER MET FREDDY BUT HE'S PROBABLY A GOOD KID
because.... like
sy
no
cut it out morales
diego's not as much of an idiot as people think
wow
he's smarter than sy
which is all sy needs to know
wow maybe they're both not idiots
but when you're not briliant
it's easier to just let people think you're an idiot FALLING IN THE MIDDLE SUCKS
being brilliant is worse
or trying to be brilliant
god he's not drunk enough for this
THEN TAKE ANOTHER SHOT DUDE
sy is going to
aggressively ruffle diego's stupid hair
and tell him gracias
for bringing him whiskey
and no other reason
mi familia
por sienpre
oh my god
sy is not saying this
but he's going to be so sad when diego graduates
diego will write him
but it's not the same as having this
ball of emotions
always around
it's so sad because
i think
diego is the one person in the world
who doesn't make sy feel garbage about having family
like sy loves his sister and his brother more than he can possibly express but sometimes he also has that painful feeling of
either feeling like the anchor weighing them down or feeling like he can't escape because
they need him too much or he needs them too much
OR WHATEVER it's just a mess
[Cut: an extended OOC discussion about the ways Diego is and isn't traditionally masculine, and how those ways help Sy feel more comfortable around him but also has made it difficult for Diego to figure out his own sexuality.]
ANYWAY sy is not learning diego's sadly coming to terms with being bi
he's just learning diego got his heart broken
and that he loves the stokers
too much
well sy's solution is to
suggest they drink to that
because who the fuck understands romance
diego has never not fucked it up
he didn't even need to be dating someone to fuck it up this time sy
yeah wow
you're a real fuckin mess dude
maybe you should
become a monk
or whatever
he really is but
look we're
kids
right?
yeah
sy wishes he wasn't but 😕
my mom married her true love when she was young and then that true love ran off on us because it was boring
and turns out someone better was waiting for her when she was almost 40
that's a good story
your mom lucked out
my mom married her true love, and it's worse bc they are exactly the same fuckin person
sy
sy
one day
we're going to find someone who understands us
and sees us
diego
oh god
no matter how difficult we are
because they're going to be just as fucked up
because everyone is fucked up, sy
everyone
sy doesn't want to marry someone who's as fucked as he is
he'll just turn into his mom and dad
you have no choice
no you won't
if it makes you feel better
sy
stop saying my name like that
promise diego you won't turn out like that
and let that looming catholic guilt
guide you
sy knows he's drunk because that almost makes sense as an idea
even tho
it doesn't fuckin make sense
SURE IT DOES you can remember this drunken promise
to be better
diego will make it too
fuck
diego will never cheat again, sy
he promises
don't make this promise to sy, sy never cared that diego cheated
sy is the worst person to make a promise with
yeah but diego fucking cares
he still cares
JUST HUMOR HIM
LET'S PROMISE TO BE BETTER PEOPLE AS ADULTS
THAN WE ARE NOW
okay
does this mean he doesn't have to do it until he becomes an adult
IT'S A PROCESS, SY
fuck
ok
fuck
then it's ok if he keeps fucking up
we're going to be fucking up util we're old
diego's going to be trying to not fuck up until he's old
yeah but it's different
diego
is a good guy
at heart
who's to say sy's not too
he's never gonna fuck up so bad that he can't fix it
everyone
sy
sy says it
ok well diego likes sy
and if sy likes diego
he has to
respect that
ok
if sy remembers in this morning
he wll subconsciously
he'll promise
to try not being such a fucked up asshole
ok
it'll be
a process
diego's going to stop being irresponsible
stop flirting with........... uh, a blatantly unavailable person who doesn't realize what diego is getting out of this one sided relationship
dude
you should want someone
who wants you
because you
deserve that
you're
a good dude
diego
dude :c
diego just goes for people who are
objectively better than him
sy does that too
and then he
fucks it up because he can't
love anyone
yes you can
and you do
sy
diego loves you
diego
fuckin shit
we'll be ok
just maybe
not right now
ok
ok
they're gonna be ok
in the meantime
yeah
sy loves you too man
[...]
diego might have drunkenly sung resurrection fern as they fell asleep
diego for fucksakes
shhhhhhhh
sy isn't
going to tell him to stop
aw sy :c
sorry for the weird impromptu lullaby this is awkward but diego's too drunk to notice
sy knows random singing is just what diego does
like random punching is just what sy does
he accepts
diego
they deal with excess emotions differently
he and sy probably went through that whole brand new bottle
it's honestly good that diego was there
because sy would've competitively tried to empty the whole thing by himself
... he probably did get competitive
he was like MORALES
YOU HAVE TO TAKE A SHOT FOR EVERY SHOT I TAKE
LET'S
DO THIS
LIKE MEN
oh my god
diego's not competitive but he's impulsive and a follower so he was like
lol ok c:
xdkjfhkjsdh
diego would not have been like
ok maybe you should stop
EVENTUALLY
but diego realizes things are out of hand usually like
30 minutes
after it's become a bad idea
so he was like....................
sy we're
too drunk
give me back the bottle
ksdjhfkjhd
sy is like no
you'll
have to arm wrestle for it
:c
ok......
i guess.......
come ON diego
he's gonna
teach you how to use those muscles
to be a badass
like sy
MAYBE ONLY A LITTLE LIKE SY
diego doesn't like hitting people
sy's going to be
suffering a little because his knuckles are all bloody and sore and bandaged
this will be a pathetic arm wrestle
diego collapses into laughter
manly laughter
oh diego
sy will be too drunk for coordination
and then he'll be like
ok
ok morales
you win
the bottle
and
my heart
but not in a fuckin gay way
i just mean
i love you dude
WHATEVER DIEGO CAN THROW A 120 LB GIRL SIX FEET IN THE AIR HE CAN WIN THIS
ok ok that's fine YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO'S GOING TO TURN HIM GAY, SY
friend love
like
family love
you're the least shitty adult figure i have in my life
are you 18 yet
can i say that
no wait until december
and you can start calling him papi
CUE MORE LAUGHTER
god you're
an idiot
but that's fine, sy is an idiot too